Dilemma of A ‘Seeker’

Preoccupied for last four decades with ‘Grihastha Ashram’, recently decided to read in depth our spiritual sacred books, ever since then a guilt feeling has developed that not only wasted complete life in the mundane activities but may not be able to comprehend fully the philosophy and the deep enlightening meaning therein in these philosophical treatise and apply them fully to this span of life in the whatever left over time before go for deep slumber.

The dilemma is...How to get rid of this guilt feeling and manage the left over time to gain the full knowledge and apply it in this journey of life?

सर्वे भवन्तु सुखिन:

सर्वे भवन्तु सुखिन: सर्वे सन्तु निरामया:!
सर्वे भद्राणि पश्यन्तु मा कश्चिद् दुःखभाग भवेत्!!

 
अर्थात: 

सब सुखी हों, सब स्वस्थ हों, कल्याण के भागी हों! कोई भी दुखी न रहे!
सब मन: कामनाएं, चाहे वे लौकिक हों चाहे पारलौकिकी, प्रभु की प्रार्थना, भक्ति, प्रभु के नाम और उसके यथार्थ अर्थ की भावना से पूर्ण होती है!

Greed

“ Should one conquer and enjoy even the whole Universe,
there will still be no end to one’s greed” – Srimad Bhagavat Puran